Seems like all of my posts lately have been negative, which doesn't really reflect my state of mind. I received some wonderful counsel from Heavenly Father this weekend, including but also independent of General Conference, and the weather has FINALLY turned to autumn, which thrills me to no end. Plus, I have a kind and generous family who are always willing to help (thanks Caity, Christina, David, Andrea, Mom, Dan!).
But today was kind of bad. Not all bad, just parts. Helena's really suffering from having Aidan here. Most of it is subconscious, I think, but it's a combination of regression and anger that she doesn't really understand. On top of that, she's been stammering more, I think as a result of the increased stress around here. Now, it's only been a week and a half since our new schedule's set in, but of course I'm worried and impatient and compulsive about everything. However, she has been helpful, sweet, and loving at the same time. Example: This morning Hunter tried to eat a bouncy ball (the kind you buy for a quarter from the machines at the grocery store.). Helena came running to me: "Hunter's trying to eat that ball!" I scooped it out of his mouth and thanked Helena for (more or less) saving his life. She patted me on the shoulder and said, "I'm your big helper, Mom." Indeed! (Then we did a big childproofing cleanup.)
I have a plan for what to do (thanks to prayer!) but wish I could feel calm emotionally and mentally about everything. My mom said my grandma dealt with regression (upon the birth of a new sibling, or when Grandma's parents moved in with them) by just ignoring it, and it went away. Unfortunately, now you feel like a jerk if you don't get super-early intervention for everything!
Anyway - send me some love, everybody! Who doesn't need it?
And in the middle of all of this, I feel like my problems are dwarfed by the problems my good friend is dealing with. Now that is someone who truly needs prayer.
Here's a line from an Alison Krauss song that has nothing to do with anything, but I think it's beautifully descriptive:
"We'll rise above the scarlet tide that trickles down from the mountain and separates the widow from the bride."
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Negative Nellie!
Posted by Beth Soelberg at 7:35 PM
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<3 <3 <3 to Beth!
Yes, they are my attempt to make hearts...:)
Here's some love, Beth. Hope you can feel it! Thanks for your comment on my blog last night -- I really needed that! We really should plan an outing. We might be coming up there to close on the house on the 27th.
I feel so out of the loop. :( I didn't even know Aidan was with you. Regarding Helena, I'm sure it's quite an adjustment for her (and all of you), and since she's so willing to help, maybe you could enlist her as your special helper to watch Aidan and Hunter. Giving her some responsibility might make her feel like she has a special place. That's just my two cents. It's probably worth just that!
Prayers and hugs coming your way!
Actually, 2 cents is EXACTLY what I can afford! :) Thanks, Leanne and Rachel. I love feeling the love!
You have our love here at 1205! Helena is always welcome to come over and be my little helper too if you want! Or Aidan! Helena just plays with Emma, so it's so easy to have her here and Aidan will get over it :) We love you!!!!
Seriously, I swear by responsibility charts. I know I already posted about them on my blog a while ago, but I can't say enough about those. Changed EVERYTHING around here! Another thing that really helps is one-on-one time. It's hard to figure out how to pull that off sometimes, but man, does it ever make a difference in how my kids feel and behave!
It's not easy being a mom- especially a good one. We're not out there getting raises or employee of the month certificates. Nobody gives us a bonus for cleaning up vomit or staying up all night with a child who is afraid of the dark. Heck, nobody even notices! Sometimes I think I would sell my soul to just be able to make it to the end of the day without peanut butter on my shirt or stickers on my butt! I guess what I'm trying to say is just that you are not alone. And for what it's worth- I appreciate all you do. You are a wonderful mom and an amazing person!
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