All new lows

I wonder if all parents have days like today or if I just need some Zoloft, but there it is. Helena's been on a weird schedule all day, and in a bad mood for most of it. And lately she's started to be a little aggressive with Emma and Bennie (our cat). All very disturbing. Finally, because I felt like I was losing it and I have lessons this afternoon, I have turned on the Baby Einstein (that's right, TV as babysitter for 10 minutes!) and I actually gave Helena a peanut butter cookie. She's not really old enough for sweets, but considering the fact that her grandma gives her Squirt from the can (just a few sips - still!), I don't feel too bad. Caity assured me that she sometimes has days like this, when Emma drives her nuts despite her love for her child. One thing I've learned about low-grade, yucky-day depression is that it helps to get moving. The more you DO the better you FEEL. How many psychologists give that advice before they write out the prescription, I wonder? So, maybe once I start lessons and get going that way I'll feel a little more initiative. (By the way, just the idea of quitting lessons is making life easier - knowing there's an end to all of this!)

The other thing lurking about in the back of my mind is CHRISTMAS! Thanksgiving will be pretty low-key, but it seems like there is always so much to do at the last minute during Christmastime that we don't appreciate the season like we should. Hard to focus on the Savior when we're frantically shopping, baking, decorating, whatever. I have some decorations out already and have at least addressed some of my cards but...

I have no profound thoughts to share today.

Cheers!